As personal and professional growth happens, there are times when you haveto decide between being content, and being hungry for more.
I'm in one such situation right now, where I have been in a strong growth position for quite a while, demonstrating new skills and abilities to influence entire organizations and technology strategies. Having shown this now consistently for some time, I feel it is now time to look ahead a little bit. My next personal goal is to become a manager, and I have received a fairly large amount of feedback that my senior leadership team thinks I have demonstrated enough leadership talent to be ready for that. Great- the stars are aligning, right?
Not so fast. Our group just had a pretty massive re-organization last week, and I had some amount of hope that this re-org would shift things to the point where a management job would be made for me. Now I don't know all of the details behind the decisions on how the org would be structured, so I can't say for sure why, but I was not given a manager position. I was told about one manager position, along with the information that it wasn't a great fit for me, which I generally agreed with after hearing about what that job's goals are, but also told I could apply for it if I wish.
But now, a week after the organizational changes, the dust starts to settle- and I feel a little disappointment. Could the leadership team, and my manager, have found a way to get me into a lead type role? If I had made a big enough statement with my talent and work, would it have forced them to figure that change out? I haveto think so. Now I'm stuck a little bit where half of my professional advice I read tells me to be content and satisfied, always confident, and the other half tells me to go take what I want and push the boundaries constantly.
I don't want to seem ungrateful to my boss or my management chain- they are the ones that have provided me the stage I am currently using to showcase what I can do. But now that I've done that- when is the output? What is the output? I'm sure they probably will give me a promo during this review cycle, they'd be insane not to, but I'm not focused on that so much as being a manager...
I guess the next step is just to sit down with my manager sometime soon and make it clear where I see my next career move, and ask if she can help me with that or not.