Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Time to turn around

I love my wife dearly. She is truly the heart and soul of our family, the caregiver and healer.

It's so important to constantly make life meaningful and matter, and her constant "discomfort" in that matter spurs us on, and is critical. For when you are uncomfortable in your walk with God, or in your daily life, you are convicted to change it for the better. This is wonderful. It's probably funny for most people to think of it like that, but I love it. Rosemary wants us to fast movies & TV again for a while, and I openly accept it and take it as my own conviction, because she is half of me. Already in the last few days, just from removing the movies & TV on a daily basis, I have began awakening my soul again. Not that I've been "dead," necessarily- but definitely more of a status quo type situation.

For the last six months or so, I noticed I'm having trouble even getting anything out of music. That's a first in my life, as music has always been a way to tap into my soul and feel alive or convicted. Thanks to my mom, I found that Air 1 has a new station in the area, and even though I don't get reception of it very well, I started listening to it on the internet. In combination with the media fast, it feels great. I've already noticed a heightened awareness of my spirit, my need for my savior, and an increase in humility when it comes to my job. (as always, I just got re-orged and got a new boss, which I'm not too thrilled about)

I could talk about a gajillion other things, like my job situation, the kids, the work I've been doing on my WRX lately, or the next car I'm going to buy, but it's all so trivial and gray compared to my savior, who puts the spring in my step, the smile on my lips, and the hope in my heart. Even when I have bad days, my Savior is there for me to lean on and to remind me why I am here on this earth.

Thank you Rosemary, you inspire me, and you make me a better person. I don't say this to flatter you, but I say this because- truly and honestly- this is why I married you. Because you have conviction, you have heart, you have a desire to matter. Just like I do. You really are my soul mate.