Wednesday, June 30, 2010

First day back at work after we had the baby.  Yeah, it's been a while since I blogged.  I had a baby, spent 750 bucks on my cat who was very sick, thatched my back yard, buffed/waxed my car, got new tires, had the house painted, etc etc.

It was good to get some things done around the house.  The time off was also good for Judah and I, because we became best buds while mommy was taking care of baby sister.  Poor guy though, I'm home for a month and I go back to work, and it's probably a huge shock to him- he wakes up and his dad is gone all day.  Well the month was good- it felt long, and short, all at the same time.

So here I am, back at work.  It sounds like there are some major shakeups coming for my team.  My boss won't tell me, we just had our 1 on 1 meeting and he didn't say a peep, but he's not real great at hiding important meetings.  I saw on his calendar, an hour long meeting in sammamish titled "Rick Ochs' role in Strategic Adoption" with a bunch of text in it that sounded like there won't be a place for my skill set in this team much longer, and in the meeting a different, senior team member was invited, too.  Sounds like my boss will be getting all of his employees removed, and they will be redistributed between two of the other people in the team, and in addition, they might try to move me out to a different group or something.  We'll see I guess, but my skip level manager set up a private 1 on 1 with me for tuesday morning.  Probably when she thought I would be back from my paternity leave. heh.

So we'll see how all this shakes out.  It's a little bit of an answer to prayer, just because my relationship with my boss is so rocky, but it's also a very unsteady feeling, not knowing if they want to just tell me to find another job, or if they will just keep me around as baggage for some time.  Who knows.  But it doesn't bode well for my yearly review, either. :(

Anyway.  That's life.  I miss my family quite a bit right now...

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

What a crazy week.  So the hiring manager for that position was on vacation all last week, and didn't complete all the interviews yet.  So I'm still waiting on that. 

I've been praying and thinking hard about my work situation, and since I don't feel that the job is a lock for me, I've been trying to work hard on my current projects and continue to deliver value.  I had a sad talk with my boss the other day, where he basically told me he ranked someone else ahead of me (someone that most everyone in the office finds a joke of an employee).  It got me pretty frustrated, that's for sure.  Well, in all of this reflection and prayer, I am constantly reminded that I need to work hard and be a servant, no matter my circumstance- because the word tells me, work as if God is my boss.  He's got my future mapped out- every day, every hour, and he knows me better than I know myself.  Each action or lack of action is guided for my benefit, and the only way I will benefit is if I continue to try hard and get the most out of whatever situation I am in- even if it means working for a man that sees little value in me, despite my accomplishments.

So here I am at work on the tuesday after a three day weekend, working hard.  I'd rather be at home, letting other people take over my projects, staying with my wife and child, waiting for my next child.  God knows, they could use me there.  Which brings me to my next topic.


Rosemary is halfway thru week 38 now, and she's been miserable since... well, since the start of this pregnancy. :( We were really hoping the baby would come over the 3 day weekend, for several reasons... the end of the pregnancy, to see our little girl, and so I didn't haveto go back to work, you know, in a legitimate way.  Well that didn't happen, and the weekend was only so-so because of the side effects of being 38 weeks pregnant.  She lost her mucous plug on sunday, so we're on notice, but man. come on.  Let's get going here.  I need a month off pretty bad, and I'd love to spend it with my family and be there with my wife.  God knows my breaking point, and he knows my wife's, and he won't take us past that.  I gotta keep putting my trust in Him- Father knows best.