I think I have all my cards out on the table.
I'm a little sad that events conspire against me(us), even during a time of giving holidays. Alas, days go by, and all I want is to just be with you. I don't even think I'd care what we'd be doing.
I feel awkward just saying that, I suppose. I don't want to do what I did the first time, and scare you. It's alright now, I guess, because you can see my intentions and my motives. You can probably see right through me. Thats how this works, though. I trust you.
Sometimes I feel like rain is the only way I can feel God's tears for me. God's tears with me. It makes me feel alive, the same way sucking the marrow out of the bible in the freezing cold at 2 AM makes me feel alive. Thats why I wanted to share it with you.
The rest of my thoughts, I will not publish, on this, my own journal. For those thoughts, they are none of the public's business. :)