Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Love does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in truth. 1st corinthians 13:6

As the Father loved Me, I also have loved you: Abide in my love. If you keep my commandments, you will abide in my love, just as I have kept My Father's commandments and abidge in His love. These things I have spoken to you, that My joy may remain in you, and that your joy may be full. This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one's life for his friends. You are my friends if you do whatever I command you. No longer do I call you servants, for a servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all things that I heard from My Father I have made known to you. You did not choose Me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit, and that your fruit should reamin, that whatever you ask the Father in My name He may give you. These things I command you, that you love one another. John 15:9-17

Romans 3:9
What then? Are we better than they? Not at all. For we have previously charged both JEws and Greeks that they are all under sin.
As it is written:
There is none righteous, no, not one...

Romans 3:23, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.

Romans 5:8 But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

Romans 5:12 Therefore, just as through one man sin entered the world, and death through sin, and thus death spread to all men, because all sinned.

5:19 For as by one man's disobedience, many were made sinners, so also by one man's obedience many will be made righteous.

Romans 12:1&2
I beseech you therefore, Brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service. And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.

Phillipeans 4:6&7 Be anxious for nothing but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God, and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

2nd timothy 2:22 Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love, and peace, with those who call on the lord out of a Pure Heart.

1st john 4:16 And we have known and believed the love that God has for us. God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God, and God in him.

4:18 There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves tormet, but he who fears has not been made perfect in love.

5:4 For whatever is born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world- our faith.

Those are all the scriptures I have underlined in my bible in those books. I've had this bible for six years or so, so its a compilation I suppose. I still see a fairly strong pattern of love though.

Monday, November 28, 2005

I wake up to my alarm blaring, as usual. But today, it didn't seem so harsh. A few very pleasant thoughts greeted me as I layed in bed, and it was a great start to a day. I get in my car, crest the hill I live on, and there is a beautiful city scape of Kent, all white with frost. It was quite a sight. I get a few minutes out, and my work buddy calls me up and says hey, lets carpool. I happened to be just a couple minutes away from our meeting spot, so I swung by and we met up, and blew by about an hour of traffic that was sitting there gridlocked.

I get in to work, and most everyone around me is grumbling about having to move to the Sammamish campus (its cubicles and most people will haveto fit 4 or 5 to a cubicle) but it doesn't bother me one bit, because I am blessed with my job and I am honored at becoming FTE. And I'll only haveto be 2 to a cubicle, not 4 or 5, because I'm going to be an FTE. I grab a caramel Macchiato, just because I want to, and start walking around and talking with the people around the office. Chatting about the move, chatting about various work things, etc. Just kind of relaxed and in a content mood, because God is my shepherd and I shall not want. I have some nice conversations with people, and they start realizing I'm not one bit bummed about the move to sammamish, and that I'm thankful to be in this position where moving to sammamish is even an issue.

Then I head out to lunch with the crew, and we talk about what faith means to us for an hour or so. Man, today is pretty good so far.

Ah, I just found out about my cube situation too! Even as a vendor right now, there will only be two of us in my cubicle. Sweet.

Thursday, November 24, 2005

I just realized,

my favorite music album ever, is Michael W. Smith, Change Your World.

If you haven't heard it before, take a look at some of the lyrics.

It's my favorite music album ever, because each song is quite powerful in it's own right, and they all seem to speak to me every time I hear them. They are all so good it seems wrong to pick some out of the crowd, but I will anyway.

I Will Be Here For You
Somewhere Somehow
Somebody Love Me

Its hard to explain what these songs mean to me, because its an emotion not easily described. It calms me, but its also the songs I've most ever shed a tear during. Its one of those albums you can just listen to forever. It makes me want to get a blanket and wrap myself in it, and it makes me feel God's love for me in a way I can't describe. Like there really is a light at the end of the tunnel, and no matter how I feel or what I do, he will always be there, and my heart will always be true.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

I am going blue.

How can I possibly explain how I feel? I don't know, but I will try.

There are two types of people at Microsoft: Orange badge, and Blue badge. Orange badge are folks that are vendors or contractors- you are hired for a certain time, to complete a certain job duty, and you're gone when its done. Thats me. I'm a Build Engineer, and they can't really afford to let me go, so I have an unending contract pretty much. Which is great, because being a vendor/contractor pays GREAT hourly rates, which fits for my lifestyle at the moment.

Then, there is blue badge. Blue badge is people hired by Microsoft. They are not hired to complete just a job function, they are hired to be a representative of Microsoft in their job position. To look out for the interests of the company as well as do their job. Full benefits are included. You get your own office, you get a prime card (discount card that works in half the stores in existance) Pro Club membership (best gym in Washington) 401k retirement plan, stock options, dental, health, etc etc. Lots of benefits.

So its almost a different realm. They usually put all blue badges in charge of the leading roles, and have vendors perform the supporting roles. I've been kind of in a weird position, as build lead for 4 seperate projects over the last year, which vendors usually don't take lead very often. And I think I am good at what I do, which really frustrated me because they told me they wouldn't hire me as a blue badge for a long time, even though they had no real reason. I decided to give it to God, and I kept repeating to myself that God knows my path and he will put me where he wants me in time, and I stopped worrying about being blue badge.

Well, that was only a month ago or so... And here I am. I haveto go through the dreaded "Interview Loop" to get the position, but everyone I will be interviewing with are people I know and have worked with pretty extensively, and my boss told me he'd rig it so its everyone that really likes me. Hahaha, thats funny. I'm not too worried about it either way, because I know I can do this job very well, and the people I will interview with know that too. If not, they will see my character and know my mettle.

Its a humbling experience, to be truthful. God has put me in a place to succeed, and every time I try and give to him and honor him and bless him, he throws it back at me tenfold. I'm honored to be able to work on a peer level with some of the smartest people on the planet. (I say some, because some softies are not so smart)

So thats what, three posts in the last 24 hours. That might be a record.
Passion will flow thick from you, and will change everyone around you. And it will not be a moment of change, but a lifetime of change. Your passion will activate other peoples long lost passions, and it will stir them up. Everyone around you will be touched by your passion, like a vine that grows into everyones lives and grabs a hold of their hearts and fills them with the fruit of God.

I can wether the storms that will come my way. Your peace will fill my heart and your joy will light my smile.

What I'm missing is my private place. I need to find it. Since I moved, I lost it, and I've lost the peace that comes with it. At my old house, I had many of my secret places. I found my solitude, my peace, my strengh, and God showed me his beauty in these places.

I think I just needed a bit of a reminder to keep myself holy for God, and sanctified by his glory, and not tainting myself with TV & movies. Thats not so big of a deal to me, and I can do that, I've done it all my life. I just had to get reminded that the kind of time you invest in something is the kind of fruit you get out of it. Investing time in a TV is fruitless- but investing time in the word of God and myself bears much fruit. Not that I ever really watched much TV, but I did start to watch one show, once a week. That'll stop! I wonder why I even started!

It makes me really sad when I see my parents devoting hours every day to the cable box. My mom has so much talent that goes untapped in the songwriting area. I go back and read e-mails from her when she had her visions of Pure Heart, and it almost crushes me. I want to renew that passion in her- I want it to flow thick and pour out of her and bless the nations with it. And my dad, his passion for the children. Hes got it. The children love him. That is such a special gift.

I am not judging my parents. I am wanting to fire them up. I want to rebuke them, as the bible tells us to.
Psalm 39:11 You rebuke and discipline men for their sin; you consume their wealth like a moth— each man is but a breath.
But a breath. Each man is but a breath. We live too short not to rebuke eachother and challenge eachother to be better christians. I want to bear much fruit, and I want my family to as well- for if you trust in God for your rest and peace, he will give you riches according to his glory, but if you seek it for yourself you will be lost among men of this world.

On the other side of a rebuke- it commands us to take rebuke and consider it:
Psalm 141:5 Let a righteous man strike me—it is a kindness; let him rebuke me—it is oil on my head. My head will not refuse it. Yet my prayer is ever against the deeds of evildoers;

And it talks about how God blesses those that listen to rebukes:
Proverbs 1:23 If you had responded to my rebuke, I would have poured out my heart to you and made my thoughts known to you.

I encourage people to rebuke those around you. Why? Because its called Accountability. Do not rebuke a mocker or he will hate you, rebuke a wise man and he will love you. Prov. 9:8. He who listenes to a life-giving rebuke will be at home among the wise. Prov. 15:31

Proverbs talks alot about rebuking, and its got some great things to say. So I encourage everyone around me to be better christians. Why? Because when you get to heaven, you will be known by your heart, and you have riches waiting for you according to your deeds here on earth.

My heart aches for those around me, and it is not judgement I incur, but encouragement of being the best servant of Christ you can be. I want to get every drop of life out of my time here, and I want you guys to get all of it too. God will give you all of your hearts desires if you seek after him, and he will dine with you in the darkest of hours if you cry to him. There is a savior, and he loves you more than you can possibly imagine. He wants to spend every minute of every day with you, and he wants to hug you and talk to you. He thinks about you more than anyone on earth, and he cries for you. He gave his life for you.
My heart cries for his touch on your lives and on mine.

Monday, November 21, 2005

Got it!

I've got the answer to the next level. I suppose it was always kind of in front of me but I always dismissed it until it was given to me.

I've been praying for a while now about what I need to be doing. What do I do. How do I get closer to God. How can I be a better Christian, better servant, better person. I've been trying to find it, and I made promises to myself a while ago to try and find it. I told myself that I would do everything asked of me by the church- I would serve in every way I was asked to, and I would fill every need I could. Well, I did this for four months. I tried to do everything for four months, trying to find what do I need to do to get closer? Just to touch the hem of his robe. To look into his eyes, to feel his touch.

I've got my answer. And I will succeed in my decisions, and my path is straight, because it has been promised to me and prophesied to me. I have confidence in myself that I can do this, because God takes care of me according to his riches and glory.

God is equipping me with the Armor. The armor I need for this world we live in, and the sword to fight back. I'm seeing these prophecies come true right and left, and its crystal clear to me.

I've got it- and I will be powerful in God's name, and I will use every last bit of blood in my body to be the person God has chosen me to be.

I've got to set myself apart. I know God has chosen me, and I've got to act the part. I've got to seperate myself from the world, so I can see it for what it is, and without the distortion of needing the world or having love for it.

I've come across this before. Why was I blinded to it now?
Because I've been marked as a threat and something is trying to make me ineffective.

Well that doesn't quite work against prayer. So I win.

ok, I'm hungry, so I'm gonna go eat a sammich or some waffles.

Thursday, November 17, 2005

its so much easier to give up than to change.

I see myself as a little kid. I was quiet, soft, sensative. I would stay quiet, until I had something to say, and all I would ever say is I love you. I loved everyone. And I loved to please everyone. Thats all that mattered.

I look at myself now... and all I see is...

Worldly accomplishments are wonderful. I've done quite a bit for my age. But what really matters, in all of life, in all of this existance, is love.

1 Corinthians 13:13 - There are three things that will endure- Faith, Hope, and Love, and the greatest of these is Love.

nothing else matters.

I look at my life- and I don't see it anymore.

I've prayed so very hard to get it back, to learn how to show my passion, my love. All I can see is an egotistical plastic person.

I just don't know how.

Its still all in here. I've still got more passion than I can ever express, I've still got God's love in me. Words can not express God's love. He thinks about you MORE than any human being ever has, and ever will. He has more thoughts of us than grains of sand exist on this earth.(psalm 139:17-18) His love is so powerful it cannot be hid from, not even in hell. Our brain is to small to even have the ability to comprehend the power of God's love. Yet I've got it in here- I've got God's love. I feel as such an unworthy vessel of the greatest gift ever given.

I find my actions as an offense to God's gift to me. I fail. I hurt people. I hurt myself. I can't even show my true self, because I just don't know how.

God is starting to answer my prayers that have gone on for so long about this. And it makes me feel all the more unworthy.

God, I know my path is straight. It has never wavered, and never will. But I just realized I've been crawling my whole life. I thought I was going so fast, too... I thought I was on fire and ready to win the world for you. I look back, and I see knee and elbow marks instead of foot prints. I look ahead, and I see foot prints. And I don't know how to walk. I don't know how to be a living copy of your love. I want to learn so bad. This passion you've given me, it makes me yearn with everything that I am to give my all to the people around me, to you.

I don't know how to be Ricky. No one even knows me.

Friday, November 11, 2005

Rosemary asked me if I knew any verses that inspire people to have faith in their christian walk. The first verse that came to mind was this:

James 2:17 - So you see, it isn't enough just to have faith. Faith that doesn't show itself by good deeds is no faith at all- it is dead and useless. (NLT)

I remembered reading it a while ago, and I remembered another James verse fairly close to it.

James 2:20 - Fool! When will you ever learn that fiath that does not result in good deeds is useless? (NLT)

haha, you just got called a fool. :)

Figured I'd share with all, since they are just generally good scriptures to share with people that need more faith (and faith is shown by their actions).

Pretty much that entire chapter in James is great for faith.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

I'm really good at making myself into a pompous, callous jerk sometimes.

at least it was on accident.

and theres a lot more I could write, but I'm zoning out because I am so tired.


Tuesday, November 08, 2005

I like this new color schema better. Definitely easier on the eyes than that dumb orange I put on there a couple years ago.

Navy. Nice color.
E-mail Time Capsule

Forbes is doing a e-mail time capsule. They let you write an e-mail to yourself, and have it sent to yourself in 1, 3, 5, 10 or 20 years. I'd encourage everyone to do this... Writing down your goals and inspirations can be very healthy for you. It helps you aim your life as an arrow to hit a target you made for yourself- be it finishing college, becoming a better Christian, getting married, etc.

I did it, and I think everyone else should, too. You have until Nov. 30th.

Make it good. :)