Thursday, April 28, 2005

Things always get better.

I got my car back today. I'm thankful I'm not driving that piece of crap Bonneville anymore. She looks good, a couple millimeters off on the bumper alignment, but the paint matches pretty well. Maybe a shade off in certain light, but then so is the front bumper (its a different plastic material than the metal body.)

And, I got a fatty raise at work. Quite fatty. I bend over backwards for these guys a lot, so I guess I deserve it.

The last few days have been absolutely horrible, dealing with insurance companies, some really ugly stuff at work, and with my raise situation (had to fight with them because they forgot to put it in, then they accidentally gave me a decrease in money, and then they got it right... after a few months.) And the insurance company finally succumbed to the body shop to get it fixed. That sucked hardcore too, but its finally done.

Now I get to put in my new fog light covers, side markers, extra center cap, STi badge, etc. it should make the car really work well. And I have my new downpipe ready to install here soon, should net me another 15 horsepower... and then another 30 with the chip. woot, should be at about 280hp by then, kickin tail, about as fast as an STi, and with good looks.

So, I haveto work late again tonight. But I don't feel any remorse over it- I'm getting paid far more than I would have ever imagined possible for someone not even out of their teens, and my work really works with my personality.

My mom mentioned she wanted to talk to me, and I got the impression it was about something somewhat serious... I'm almost filled with dread talking to her, because I feel like she'll call me on something or other that I don't know about. And I don't want to feel really guilty right now... Such is life, I guess. You need the people around you to keep you pointed in the right direction. I think I'm doing alright, though. I think...

Time to start saving for a house... :)

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

So... got my wheels on... and its going in the shop next monday to fix the bumper... and my new exhaust will arrive monday as well, so I will put it on when I get the car back.


I hope they don't give me a lame rental car...

Hmm. What else...
House is still for sale... it got re-listed with a different company. we'll see if that actually works or not.

Work is alright.

Most of my friendships are pretty much down the tube for one reason or other.

God has a plan, right? Well, is divorce part of his plan? Is this for some greater good or something? I have a feeling God is no part of this. He does not work with hard hearts or selfish minds, only people that are willing and obediant to Him and His will. Addictions and seeking attention are some of the most selfish and ungodly things. God would see you succeed, so that you might be a light in this dim world. If you are not stretching to be the best you can be, you'll be at the end of your life, wondering when it gets good. If you do stretch to be all you can be, to try your best, to be successful, your goals will not be out of reach, and you will be an effective, meaningful person. A light, in this dim world.

You've got eighty years. The blink of an eye. Watchya gonna do, sit back, take it easy? Or are you gonna do something meaningful with your life? Be all you can be?

Only you can answer your own questions, and only you can figure out who you are and where you want to go. Its a nightmare of mine to see people go home and watch TV for the rest of their lives. And then they die, and people say at your funeral, "he was a good person." But they say that, because thats what people say at funerals.

I'd rather die, than live without passion, and meaning.

Thursday, April 07, 2005

haha, I just read an article about people hitting their computer. Reminds me of Alex. It also mentioned a small portion of people try to sweet talk there computer (like Ashlee).



So, I ordered my wheels yesterday...


it should match my car pretty well.

now I just haveto decide on tires.

and my exhuast situation.

and my bumper repair situation.

I hate insurance companies.

Hum, nothing else to post about for right now...

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Unfortunately I think I've lost Ben as a friend. Oh well, it was going to happen sooner or later with the way he was treating me. When someone does not listen to you or even consider what you have to say, but only refutes your every word, there is no choice but to stop trying to talk to them. But of course, thats "harsh" and therefore he would refute that. and thats "harsh" too, so he would refute that. its an unending cycle, and theres nothing more I can do about it, because he won't listen to me. because thats "harsh." (truth hurts?)

Drop the ego, and listen to your friends. You don't have any left.

"Soften your heart, child. Humble yourself."

So, my car should get repaired soon here. Thats kind of cool. And instead of getting them to replace my broken muffler, I'll just use the cash to buy one that I want. So thats cool. I'm looking toward getting Cobb Stage 2... should make me about as fast as an STi, with a very nice sounding boxer rumble. And I've got my wheels picked out... gun metal rally style 10 spoke wheels. very cool looking.

I probably need to get fog light covers, before a rock turns one of them into mush. And I could get the carbon fiber interior trim, too... it would help get rid of the plasticy look of the interior, which would be nice.
hmm, what else... working on the weekend sucks.
One thing that makes life easier these days is being on the worship team at church. It lifts my spirits to be able to work towards a common goal with fellow people that have daily struggles as well. Using your everything to worship God, as you were made for, just makes you feel better about life, and more at ease. Its like a dip in God's refreshing ocean after a week of trudging through the Sahara.

Carpe Diem

Saturday, April 02, 2005

Happy one year anniversary Amy!!
Too bad we both don't feel well.

Working on the weekend sucks, btw.

Friday, April 01, 2005

The insurance company is trying to shaft me on getting OEM parts.
They are trying to get Replica parts put on my car, instead of OEM Subaru.

Thats crap. I pay ABSURD amounts of cash to these companies, yet they continuously take advantage of me. Especially after I was in an accident, not at fault, and they are trying to jip ME on it. Sigh...

These companies are a scam. I could repair the car four times over if I still had the money I've paid them.

This is just so rediculous.

And to top it off, my spine and neck are all screwed up (x-ray proven).

I'm so frustrated...