Monday, February 28, 2005

I ended up goin to Ocean Shores with Mike for the weekend.
I'll write about it here, so its an optional read, as it seems no one cares what actually happened while we were down there. :)

So, we drove there... there was a very long, empty highway, and it was too tempting to pass up, so I hit third gear and got her up to 90 easy, and we hit 100 in 4th gear, then slowed down. It was quite exhilirating...
We got there, looked around for a place to stay for an hour or two, after being told that every hotel in the entire town is full for the night. We stopped at a log cabin motel... it was really dark, and kind of in the woods. The words "Office" were painted on the side of a house... I walked up to knock on the door, but the entire place was unlit, and it just felt creepy, like the kind of motel you see in a movie where weird things happen. I promptly got back in the car, and we drove down the road a bit longer, and found a better lit motel, that looked a little better. We got the room for only 40 bucks (it was only worth that, trust me..)

After we got the room, we went bowling. We did a couple of games, and then signed up for Rock 'n bowl. Mike promptly owned me, and that was that. It was fun at least. Kind of insightful to think about all the bowling things I havent thought about since I was 10 yrs old. I didn't do too bad, for it being 9 years later.. I suppose. about 8 or 9 strikes total.. eh.
Anyways, back to the story. We go back to the beach in the WRX, and pull some wicked donuts. Get that sucker in first gear, crank the wheel over, and just do a circle, and then stomp on the gas. The car looses all traction all at once, and you go sliding in circles of about 40 or 50 feet. Let off the gass, and you slide to a complete stop about 20 feet away. After a few of those, and almost getting stuck in a really deep sand bank, I tried one backwards, and tried a james bond, where you do a donut in reverse then straighten out and go forward. I forgot to go forward though. :) Going backwards and sliding at the same time is scary enough, though.

Mike and I sat looking at the waves lap against the beach for an hour or two, with our brights on... and looking at the stars (and all the other big SUVs on the beach, most likely with people making out/doing other stuff in the really dark area)

We went back to the hotel after picking up some stuff at the ONLY place that was open that late. We fell asleep, and we were woken up at about 7 am by about 3 or 4 people in the other room screaming at eachother. That continued for over 3 hours. We checked out of our room at 10:30ish and had some pretty decent breakfast... and went back to the beach. People were everywhere... so we drive about 3 or 4 miles down the beach, passing everyone up. Then, we see a cheap kia SUV try a donut, and we decide to show off. I crank the wheel and do about 4 or 5 tractionless donuts. I see a jeep about a quarter mile away booking towards us, and I start heading towards the beach exit... and the jeep turns on his lights, and pulls us over. The cop told us that we were lucky he didnt take us in for a criminal citation... (I was thinking, What the heck? Put us in jail and fingerprint us for doing a donut?) But he did give me "negligent driving to the 2nd degree" and slap a 534 dollar fine on me. For doing a donut. OMGWTFBBQ...
funny thing is, if you drive on the beach, every few feet, you see big donut tracks. sigh...
So I got all down, and we just drove home. Luckily no one really tried to race us on the way back, except for a freaking old gutless kia... (on the way over about 3 people tried to race us).

got home, watched I-robot, then mike and I were both in pretty down moods, so he just left...

to make it better, it sounds like mandy and ben are getting a real divorce, and I get a really sad e-mail that I don't know what to do with...

and to top it all off, I worked a 60 hour week, which people tell me "screws with your emotions."
I thought the vacation would HELP!!

someone told me I need to stop trying to help others, and just worry about myself. problem is, its part of who I am to try and help those I love. But, I'm not qualified, or people don't listen, or whatever the reason, it doesnt work... and it just ends up hurting me more, because I take more burden from people.
I don't know what to do anymore.

Saturday, February 26, 2005


What a strange weekend.

Stayed up til 4am talking with my friends and nothing in perticular...

Thinking about driving to ocean shores for a day. It sounds extremely fun...

what else to type.
Hmm. I worked 17 hours on thursday... what a day. including driving, it was a 70+ hour week... man.. so tired.

Thursday, February 17, 2005

so I hit over a thousand hits last week sometime...

My new car is completely awesome...
thinking about naming it Tasha, or Tosh for short. Dunno about that yet.

Or "schoolbus" haha.

my boss and other higher ups at work call it the "bumble bee"

Sunday night I took Amy to Cheesecake factory and the movie Hitch. That was a pretty good night, I really enjoyed it. The next morning, Amy left a flower on my car. I wish I would have done the same for her, but her car is in a garage... :/ I wanted to buy her another boquet of flowers, but by the time I went on monday night, there were only really bad ones left.

So, work has been kinda hectic. Things breaking left and right, and most of them have to do with me (although not my mistake). I woke up on tuesday morning with blood all over my face and all over my hand (a lot of blood). Everyone at work told me I was crazy for not calling 911, but later I went to the doctor and he said it was just an extremely bad nosebleed (I never get nosebleeds..) and a strange headache and vever to acompany it.

What else... Well, my boss wants me to play halo with him now, he said its a requirement and sent out meeting invites on xbox live as required attendee, but I'm sure its not, he is just joking and he wants me to work less.

I came home way early today because I have a dentist appointment. Its fun to cruise around on the freeways without traffic in my car... you can upshift into 3rd gear on the freeway, and you are FLYING. such a fun experience.
Tonight is music practice, and tomorrow I get to hang out with Amy again. :)

You know its hard, being an "adult" or whatever. You loose sight of the meaning of life, and I can see why people have midlife crisis, and deal with this for decades of their life.
I'm doing what I can now, to make sure that never happens to me... buy the fast sports car, participate in church, make a difference at work, etc

So I think this journal entry is long enough. I will end it now before it continues into nothing more than Ricky Ramblings (tm).

Sunday, February 06, 2005

I just bought a new car.

I like it.

A lot.

Thursday, February 03, 2005

For those of you who doubt how good a white on black WRX looks, heres a pic:

Thats kind of like the look I'm going for. maybe darker windows or lighter wheels, so they match more, though.