Thursday, October 28, 2004

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Work is hard.
very
hard.




I've been praying every day on the way to and from work, and its really started helping my daily life, and giving me a more positive outlook. I just hope I can keep up at work. I'm in the "trial period" at work, so you can say. When they test you out and see how good you are, to see if they really want you doing that job, or if they want to try and find someone else.
I pray daily that I will do the best I can, and that things will go well. It has been good so far.

Pride
resentment
selfishness

these are the things that hinder us as humans...
the antidotes:

humility: be humble, and honest.
integrity: Don't harbor ill thoughts of someone. They will sleep like a baby while you stay up all night grinding away at it.
self-sacrificing attitude: Whats our most important posession as humans? Surely not our money. Our time. Our time is all we really fully control, and if you give it to others freely, it will make the difference. One or two acts of giving or helping aren't going to change you. You haveto constantly fight selfishness, and it will get easier with time.
Actively listen to people around you, and exhibit humility integrity and a serving attitude, and your quality of life will improve dramatically.


N-e ways, sellin mah paintball gun now..
prolly gonna buy a DM4...
and saving for a new car of course...
probably gonna be a WRX...
yeah...

Sunday, October 17, 2004

I start my new job tomorrow.

I pray that I can be the very best, and that I start my new career with a good first day.


it feels like I'm on a new adventure to go throw a ring of power into a mountain or something...

Friday, October 15, 2004

so I think I've narrowed my list a bit, and changed a few things...


Prelude SH
WRX
300ZX
Supra
BMW 3 series
mustang GT
Integra R

EVO is too expensive/new,
3000GT is too large/heavy,
RX7 is too.. rotary,
Civic SI is too cheap, and slow.

Added the mustang just cuz... why not.

WRX is fast.. leaning toward it. its got 4 doors, good ground clearance, AWD, etc.
and the 3 series beamer is nice... Dad says I will probably want to buy one really bad after I drive one.
we shall see...
I start my new job on monday. I'm pretty excited.
I mean, who would not be excited about doing something they love, and getting free pop (as much as you want, all day,) while doing it?
I mean, come on.
yeah.
see?
I think people are starting to think of me quite differently now that I work at Microsoft... People talk to me different, treat me different, and act different around me. And I don't think they really mean to, but it just comes off that way. Some are bitter at my opportunities they don't see, some are filled with awe, some want to impress me so I'll get them a job later. Its kind of aggravating. Just because I work at MS doesnt mean I'm a changed person. I mean, I can still be the same old friend and so on.
I don't think they will ever get past that issue... and if they don't, well, I guess its time to move on. I can't live with people loathing me every time I see them.
So I went in and paid off my Halo 2 preorders... I don't know if I'm gonna stand in line and wait for it tuesday the 9th at 12:01am tho. maybe, maybe not. If I feel like it.
played in a poker tournament today... got my butt kicked. I imagine I will the first few times until I can learn a bit more about real life poker.
I kind of feel alone in the world now- going into places and doing things that no one around me really has before, besides a few, more professional relationships.
Maybe my friendships will inevitably stretch apart because of this.

I guess I'll see if people want to continue to be my friend or not. I'll probably see pretty soon here. And maybe see their motivations.

If you want to come up and see my new office, let me know- I'd love to take you.


Tuesday, October 12, 2004

top 10 list of cars to consider buying:
Honda Prelude SH (97-01)
Honda Civic SI (98-03)
Acura Integra R (97)
Mitsubishi Lancer Evo (2004)
Mitsubishi Eclipse (meh, bad turning radius)
BMW 3 series (320 or higher)
Toyota Supra (my fav in looks)
Nissan 300ZX
Mitsubishi 3000GT
RX7

I thought about putting the WRZ impreza on there, but I dont like the looks a lot. Maybe if it drives really well... I hear it does...
and maybe take out the eclipse.

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

My life has been a giant training time for this exact moment.
This is the moment of truth.
And I passed.
I now have a job at Microsoft.
This means hardly anything to most of you, and a lot to a few of you- but if you really know me, I have been pulling for a job like this for the past ten years of my life. Ever since I touched a computer first I was good with them, it was always just natural. I have always worked hard at my dreams in this industry, and finally it has paid off. I mean, more than work hard- I went above and beyond, obtaining my MCP certification when I was 16, building my first computer when I was 10, taking one apart when I was 8, getting into the extremely deep art of hardware, so deep that I would talk about how the microns flow across the surface of a silicon wafer. After years of teaching and working and striving, here I am.
I never thought it would happen. I've had tens of evangelists tell me that I would make it one day, but I always brushed them off as small talk encouragement. Well, they were right.

The only reason I ever got this job was because of God. If you don't believe that, okay, but you really do haveto understand the circumstances. My resume went through five or six different people before it was even truly looked at. Every single one of those people had a certain issue or problem that needed resolving before they would pass it on.
This all happened in a matter of DAYS. This is UNHEARD OF for Microsoft Vendors. It usually takes months of job searching and applying and working with your contractor headhunter before anything yeilds. With this, God's hand was on it from day one, and it all just happened. Getting into Microsoft is one of the hardest businesses to get into, and thats an actual documented fact, by Forbes magazine I think. And I did it.
Not to be egotistical, because it was God who did it- he created me. But it happened, and I feel like my life MEANS something now. I've always had depression issues with that, and I probably always will- but this is a step in the right direction. With this I will have the resources to do God's will and not be restricted by things like money.

This job is the only job discription in the software development community that I could even get. Its the only one I am qualified for. And I got it. And only one of these positions comes up every year or so. Lucky? No, God.

This is Ricky Ochs, working for Zero Chaos, a Microsoft vendor.

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

If you believe in God, pray for my job situation.
I have an interview tomorrow, on the phone with two people from Microsoft.
I pray that God turns their hearts towards me and that I am eloquent, and that everything fits into place.

Sunday, October 03, 2004

I'm sick
and I have the hiccups.
:(