Monday, August 30, 2004

I'm tired during the day, but not deep in the night.

btw, don't try typing with gloves on.
its hard.
so much stuff to do before mom and dad leave, and I leave... prep this, make sure the house is in good condition, pack, blah blah blah...
I still need to go to lindmark! Bah, they owe me money, I should just go and finish up that computer move and get some money.
I'm hot! it is hot in here.

Saturday, August 28, 2004

interested in a free I-pod?

not too hard to do.
Well, tomorrow I go paintballing with dad for the last time before he goes to europe for FIVE AND A HALF WEEKS.
then on to PAX- penny arcade exposition. Should be fun.
Bleh busy busy busy.
I hope I meet some of my online friends at PAX- Deezee and whoever else.
Mom and dad leave next friday for europe...
Oh, and, they bought a new car... A white volvo, 2000.
I don't like volvos very much...

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

I decided to go all out and purchase seven of the new Torid Xs to sell on e-bay. I think I can sell them at good resell values and make some good cash. I guess we shall see!
heres what they look like. I got one of every color, and two black/red and black/blues.

I hope this works!
they cost me a lot of cash.

Monday, August 23, 2004

I just shelled out 850 dollars for tuition for this upcoming quarter.
:( not really. And I still haveto pay for books.
So heres my schedule for fall quarter, September 27th thru December 19th(or something like that):
Item Course Credits Class_Day_Time Building Room Instructor
4242 G BUS101 5.0 DAILY 0830A 0920A C161 Lum L
1961 SPCH 225 5.0 DAILY 0930A 1020A R211 Hurst S
1262 ENGL 101 5.0 DAILY 1130A 1220P R305 Magie E

Course descriptions:
G BUS 101
Introduction to Business . 5 CR

Examines the role of business in a modern economy: growth, structure, organization, and relationship to the environment. Students investigate the objectives, functions, and management of business firms. Other topics include problems of organization, decision-making, and controls. Fulfills social science course requirement at BCC.

SPCH 225
Small Group Communication . 5 CR

Explores effective communication in small groups. Students examine aspects of group process, including leadership, conflict management, decision-making, conformity, and critical thinking. Students work in groups to test theories and practice skills. Fulfills social science course requirement at BCC.

ENGL 101
Written Expression . 5 CR

Develops clear, effective writing skills and emphasizes writing as a process. Students practice writing in a variety of forms and modes. Either ENGL 101 or COMM 141 meets a written communication course requirement at BCC. Prerequisite: Placement by assessment, or ENGL 092 or 093 with a C- or better.

I got REALLY lucky with the english part- you haveto take the Compass test to assess into what english class you need to take, english 101 being the highest. There are SEVEN OTHER ENGLISH CLASSES that you haveto test out of before you get to english 101. And if eng 101 is required for a certain degree, those people haveto take all seven of those clases to even get up to it. I'm glad I was able to test right into it... otherwise I'd be at engl 70, 80, 81, 88, 90, 98, 99 blah blah. Lot of extra english. heh.

Hopefully gonna get my car fixed tomorrow, have Rod look at it at his house.
Gonna buy a few of those new TES Xs and see how well they sell on ebay. Wish me luck.

Saturday, August 21, 2004

Your soul is STEADFAST. You are a fiercely loyal
person who would never cross a loved one.
People always know they can rely on you and
your dependability is well-known. You're
probably a little on the quiet side, but your
faithfulness is never doubted, and you always
back up your kith and kin whether they want or
need it or not. You are a dependable and
trusted soul.

What Is Your Soul's Trait?
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I think that fits rather well.

On another note, I have a barrel kit for my gun, an Empire 7 piece kit. Should help a bit with accuracy, and it MATCHES MY GUN! woot. Check it out.

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

Drove up to bellevue. Got pretty much everything squared away... signed up for two classes, waitlisted another one.
Took the Compass test, got a 98 (woo) out of 99.
I wonder if I should be getting a job or what.
All total, college will cost me like 6 grand.
Very cheap.
For an Associates of Arts in Information Technology - Network Services & Computing Systems, Microsoft Network Engineer.
91 credits needed...
And I should get a few from south seattle, transcribed from OSC to them.
We shall see, maybe save me some more cash.

Anyways, thats not why I'm still up at this time of night.
My mind goes and I don't feel like sleeping...
You know, I almost feel bad. Amy has given me five different things on four different occasions.
Graduation book, Qoute book, "Who Am I" Book, and an outfit for my birthday. What have I given her? A biodegradable flower or two...
Her gifts are simply amazing and touch me to the core with her profound voice and soft touch, but I gave her a flower.
I know I'm not as creative as her, but I should prolly take the time to do something to make her know how special she is to me.
Sorry for anyone else that is reading this, usually only Amy does.

Why do us humans always have our guilt and pain we carry around with us?
All of us do it, pretty much. It is second nature, really...
We all must learn the truth and come to understand it is not our fault and the pain is not for us to bear, for us to make our lives better, so we can do things we are meant to do.

<3s to my reader. :)

Monday, August 16, 2004

Tomorrow morning I drive up to bellevue community college to sign up for all of my classes.
kind of excited, yet kind of not. My life is headed in good directions.
The quarter starts September 27th, so I still have quite a bit of time on my hands...
I'm curious if I am going to go for my bachelors degree after I get an associates... it would certainly help my job situation quite a bit. And would not be too expensive at BCC, thats for SURE.

Sunday, August 15, 2004

My big experience of the week:

I was at Patriot Paintball with fil, doin a 3v3. Fil and I were left, vs one guy (he had a DM4 and was skilled)
He bunkers fil, and as I'm reloading dives behind the snake. I keep his head down with cover fire, run (WHILE SHOOTING WOOT! AND ACCURATELY!) and bump to a laydown 20 ft away and pump his butt full of a hopper.
woot woot!
That made my week.
In other news, I just bought a new barrel kit for mah gun(s)...
urgh, I probably should not have.
o well.

I miss Amy a lot. She is sick so I don't want to go over there, cuz I'll keep her from resting and getting better...
I love her.

Blah blah blah bored.

Thursday, August 12, 2004

Yay, I got my new hopper today!
it looks pretty, so I took a picture.

the only thing that doesnt match is my barrel...
its a nice barrel though. :/

now I should be able to fire up to 24 bps roughly.
if my fingers can pull that fast. and they can't. Probably around 15-17 max I think, and maybe thats optimistic.
Still, fast shooting.
my mouth is completely numb on the right side. I think I've bitten my tongue and cheek several times, but I can't confirm that since I have no feeling.

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

My uncle Roger's funeral was today.
I didnt know him that well, but I knew he was a nice person.
I decided not to go to the funeral, because it kind of scares me- death.
A lot of my relatives are in poor health and I feel like I don't want to approach the entire situation. Maybe I'm just running from it, and I don't want to confront death.
Well, my grandmother's health is failing, and my dad's isnt very good, and my great grandmother is what, 98 yrs old now, and blah blah blah...
This isnt really the first time someone I have known has died. I've had a few kind of close friends online, that one, was killed by an overdose, and the second shot himself while on the phone...
Well during the days I knew those people I spent well over like eight hours a day on the computer talking and gaming with those kinds of people, so I knew them better than their parents did, them being recluses like me.
But this is the first time its come a little closer to home as far as reality. I mean, I never met those people in real life- almost, but never did. My uncle Roger, I met him.
He was dead two weeks before someone found him. Just dead, on his couch.
His landlord came buy to collect rent and finally he just opened up the place and found him.
He was only 50 yrs old or so...

What a lonely death. Isn't that horrible.
I guess I know I'm a strong enough person to deal with death, but I just don't want to. It's just a horrible situation all in all.
Maybe I'll come to some great conclusions about it when I've had more experience with it, and it will be okay...

May you rest in peace, Roger. You truly were God's own.

Monday, August 09, 2004

Not a bad birthday. Not one of the more eventful ones, but it wasnt bad.
Amy gave me a nice outfit, shirt and pants, and I think they look rather good.
Got a 120 dollar hopper from mom and dad, and 20 more bucks from dad for gas or something like that.
Got a bunch of taffy I've been eating for the last hour sitting here too, its pretty good. From Amy's parents. :)
Went over to Rod's and we watched the brickyard 400 and the hydro races, had some burgers and some cake. Good times.
They have a new pet bunny, cute lil guy, they named him Dover, after the racetrack. hehe.
Took a nice long nap, too, then went and hung out with Amy, like every other night.
So I've got 78 dollars in my wallet, and I'll keep that for my trip to Canada.
Lets see, average of five dollars a meal, times three meals a day, times seven days...
105 dollars for food. That sounds about right, for one person...
And then things that I want, like souveniers and things I want to do while I'm up there... Don't know how much I should bring for that... Probably another 100?
And I wonder if I should pool my money with the other guys that are going, and we can buy bulk food... And bring food.
I'll haveto work it out in more detail. But not on my blog.

Later, and thx for all the great birthday cards and presents! :)

Saturday, August 07, 2004

Saturday, august 7th.
My birthday is tomorrow.
I already have my present from my parents, or should I say its on its way. I decided to get a Halo B, which is a super fast loader for my paintball gun. That way I can shoot fools even faster. I got a nice pretty blue one, with a RIP drive- which means if the batteries run out, or it jams, I can fix it with a little twist of a nob. It'll match my gun rather well, and kind of set off the entire ensemble. Besides my barrel, which is a shiny pewter, and kind of doesnt match anything. hehe.

Apparently we are going to have a BBQ at Linny and Rod's house tomorrow... Watch some of the seafair stuff. I like F-18s. Especially if they are flown well. So that should be somewhat fun.
I'm kind of chillin today, not much to do...
I wish somethin fun would happen.
Like a LAN or a buncha friends come over or something.


<3s to my reader(s).

Friday, August 06, 2004

I just took a very long IQ test and a personality test.
I think that the personality test is very accurate, but I have no clue about the IQ test- I've never taken a real one. If that wasnt a real one.
I dunno.
Heres my results.

Personality test:
Ricky, you're an Observer! You are an indispensable equalizer amongst the various groups that comprise your life. You feel that the spotlight and center stage were made for other people to act out their fantasies.

This means you're one of the more kind-hearted people around. You are unusually intuitive, and you probably understand yourself, as well as others. That also means you're a good mediator — though you may prefer to spend more time on your own than most.You are better equipped than many to steer your life in the right direction. Understanding more about the components of your personality will reveal unique information that even people like you might not realize. And the better you know yourself, the more confident you'll be making decisions that affect your life. And that's just scratching the surface!

IQ Test:
Congratulations, Ricky!Your IQ score is 131

This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others. Your Intellectual Type is Visionary Philosopher. This means you are highly intelligent and have a powerful mix of skills and insight that can be applied in a variety of different ways. Like Plato, your exceptional math and verbal skills make you very adept at explaining things to others — and at anticipating and predicting patterns. And that's just some of what we know about you from your IQ results. This means you are highly intelligent and have a powerful mix of skills and insight that can be applied in a variety of different ways.

to take these tests go to:

you can also make a test and have your friends take it to see how well they know you. Was thinking about doing that.
I think I will.

Take the quiz!

Wednesday, August 04, 2004

eh, I am not in the mood to fall asleep right now...
sides, it doesnt matter, right? It's summer? :/

It's always times like these, when I'm alone, that I can explore my feelings a little more in depth. I like music, because it helps me do this. I can identify with certain songs, like, oh, Incubus - I miss you. I've got playlists FULL of songs I like to listen to when I'm in this sort of introspective mood.
I don't like to share ALL of my findings with everyone, so read on at your own risk. Yes, it is a lot of thinking, sorry Ashlee, I can't help it, it's who I am. :)

You get all of these claims by thousands of different people about love. Songs, poetry, qoutes, books, so on. People tell you love never lasts, it never fades, it is always honest, it is the best thing in the world, and you can go out and purchase with your hard earned cash all of this reasoning(Which is kind of an oxymoron- love and reasoning) about love.
This is how I think of it.
Thousands of generations of folks have gone on with their lives. People live, people die, life goes on. What happens in between doesnt matter so much, doesn't have so much affect. The one thing us lowly humans are capable, is love. So go, live your life- but find something to live it for. Find reason behind your morals you make for yourself, find reason behind your actions. Find something that is worth all of your years- something you can be proud of. Me? I invest my heart and soul in love. I must say, not just to one person. I love God, I love Amy, and God commands me to love my neighbors (in which he means everyone) and so I try to find good in people around me, too(its hard to love strangers if you can't tell what good they can do for you...)
So with our small little lives, we must make something of it, before we turn to ashes and dust. I believe my heart is my most valuable posession- over my computer, my drumset, my music.

Okay- so, I am going to make my mark on this world with the love I give.

How do you love effectively?!
With all of these different "This is what love means" books and whatnot, it can be hard... So this is how I view it.
People have and make relationships with eachother. A good relationship is based off of something wholesome- for me, I believe all relationships should be based off trust.
If you can trust someone to be there for you, if you can trust someone to do something for you, if you can trust someone to take care of you, no matter what. Or maybe you can trust someone not to be there for you, it goes both ways. But trust is what the core of a relationship should be(remember this is just my take on things).
Now I believe a lot of what people say about love is true- Love is blind, love is beautiful, etc.
But I also believe love never ends. If you truly and honestly love someone in the right and proper way, with real trust and real total commitment to someone, it will never leave your heart, no matter who dies. (If someone is getting a divorce, do you really think it is, or ever was, the kind of love God intended for us?)
If you have the kind of true love God put in our hearts for someone, I believe it is stronger than any other thing on Earth. I'm not getting freaky and saying you can bend spoons with love- what I am saying, is that if two people truly love eachother the way God made love for us, then they shouldn't haveto bend spoons, it wouldn't matter. Love wouldn't stop when cancer strikes, love wouldn't stop when someone grows a tumor on their butt, love would see past mistakes, faults, any wrongdoings. It is more powerful than any of that trivial stuff- I believe love is the most powerful emotion/feeling/power humans can have. Two people truly love eachother, they will do pretty much anything they can for eachother, without question, and pretty much value the other person in the relationship more than themselves. It makes sense to me, if this is done correctly, then they will both be taken care of, right? But America, and humans, are naturally extremely self-centered. So it is EXTREMELY hard for someone to have the kind of selfless love God has given us. Can you lay down your life for someone? Sure. Can you stop watching TV for the rest of your life for someone? Maybe. Can you go live in somalia for someone, for the rest of your life? Wow. Thats asking a lot, even more than death. Same thing God asks of you when you become his eternal servant. Not to die for him, but to live for him. It is harder.

In essence, Love is the hardest thing for us to truly attain, but is the most sought after. Who among us is truly ready to give up the next eighty years of our lives? If you truly love, then you would gladly and graciously give your life and every aspect of it for someone.

I pray I can love someone that much someday. It is not today, I know that... But I pray I can find what God gave us, the power to love. To love God, and to love a spouse, and to love my neighbor. If you finished reading this, whoa. You deserve a cookie. (I don't have any. But thanks for reading it. :) )

Until next time!


Monday, August 02, 2004

This marks my passing of fifty posts.
Saw the movie, The Village last night.
Quite a bit different from what I expected. It was pretty good.
I encourage everyone to listen to Digitally Imported, the online radio station every once and again for your trance/techno fix. They have all sorts of different techno, find a station you like. Its spectacular!
I personally like the regular trance channel the best. The other channels are great too though.
Mah Birfday is in siixxxx dayyyyssss!
unfortunately on my calendar, bracketing my birthday, are multiple dentist appointments.
how fun.

Doom 3 comes out today... Everyone is all excited and stuff.
I'd probably play it, but parents don't appreciate that kind of game too much, so I'll not play it unless the opportunity arises. Its one of those super extreme scary games, where there is a three headed five legged monster very slowly walking after you, and you unload your last five bullets into it and it still comes on... so you haveto pull out some totally wicked crowbar or... chainsaw or something to try and finish it off as it lashes its death-rape-tentacles at you.


I'm hungry.